Day 16: Forgive me, Father, etc.

It’s 8:45 a.m. on Saturday, and I’m watching a video Jena sent me of a doctor at New York City’s Weill Cornell Medical Center talking about COVID-19. He is calm and measured and educated, and despite the scariness of the information he’s presenting, it’s a balm in an environment that remains mind-bogglingly post-truth.

Keep your hands clean, and you will not get this disease.

Once upon a time, I could stir when Mark got up to feed the cats in the morning, maybe peek at my phone and snooze for another few hours. These days, from the moment I pick up my phone, I’m awake. (I’m trying to turn that habit of looking at my phone off. Good luck to me.)

So I’m up.

We made popcorn with coconut oil and nutritional yeast last night while wrapping up the evening’s binge of The Sopranos. The popcorn was disgusting. I don’t know how people vegan.

But shit, The Sopranos is GREAT. I guess it took the outside world becoming unbearably bleak for me to get brave enough to watch it, and now I’m torn between savoring it and making the series last as long as possible — and making binge watching my full-time job for the next two weeks.


I don’t have anything else to say, and this isn’t meant to be an item I check off on a list to say that I did it. I’m doing okay.

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